Endomorphism
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
Feb 8, 2011
Scanned originals:
Result of a two hour marathon with Jim. I suppose I should start putting keywords on what we talk about so that these are more searchable later. I'll get to it this weekend.
Saturday, February 5, 2011
Feb 5, 2011
Got some stuff to look back over, mostly complex analysis stuff, some vector calc. Purchased Rudin's Function Theory in the Unit Ball of C^n. Hopefully it turns out to be an update of Function Theory in Polydiscs.
Friday, February 4, 2011
Feb 4, 2011
Goal is to write up answers to these questions as I discover them or discuss them with Jim.
Thursday, February 3, 2011
Feb 1, 2011
Notes, Tuesday, Feb 1, 2011
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
home economics, November 4, 1956
frame by frame on the white hollow
partition cellulose wall chambering
the larval wives the pupal mothers in neat shoes
straight-skirts coiffed blonde threads
splashing elegantly down slender milky stalks
across the tops of prim curled admonishments
the lesson today is Terms boil stir bake after all
duty the magnetic grip of starched marriage
so much depends on the isolated conformity of constructing
a pan of limp brassica
drowning in an ocean of milk scum
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
portrait
a brown film that slides out away from the house
onto the broken pavement,
glass long fled,
shutters hanging on pitted steel
failing to conceal the wounds.
Coiled under the leaning wood of the deck,
bleached and dry
a hose still hangs off its pipe,
loose end trailing off into the lawn,
a sea of sand and rocks that cast off the sun,
scratch the mirrored air with mirage.
Husk of a woman is curled on the stoop,
tipped back and tired in the shade.
Inside, the boy cures in the rubber pool
too small to contain his frame,
the heat eating his flesh as it has for weeks
(twenty pounds in June).
Black brush crackles as she pulls it through
the tangle of sweat and static
and listens to him
drink the air
in gasping pants
that push water out onto the floor,
a miasma of salt and sweat
and the yellow scent of burnt copper
snaking out from the fridge,
easing out down the hall.
She slides a few feet further from the door,
the smoke of her cigarette
twisting and curling around her head,
and watches the quiet sand.
at the edge of the woods
a gate,
adrift from their brothers,
a port on the sea
of brown arms, green fingers,
breaking waves.
wind pushes silent giants
sweeping arms a mad swirl
the wash of limbs
turns me, plants my head
knots of memory
root out
break skull
twist into loam
crawling feelers
wander, search
my brain reaches deep
cracks foundations
and my feet spread leaves
soles warm in the sun -
until the wind dies
and the branches still.
the drift
disappear. the currents eat them, erase.
no hollow face gazes out
into the murk above a broken hull
or the hood of a rusting car.
not long, that is.
a thin shell is all that separates him
from a drift into the cold.
a scarred pike wedged into the rocks below
watches his pale twigs break the mirrored glass,
the fingers gaunt and bent.
the water whispers
as it laps about the seeping bottom
and the walls
against his back and legs,
his shoulders.
there are no stars.
they hide behind curtains
damp and still,
unseen. shadows wait
just underneath.
Monday, June 1, 2009
red flower
deep inside the gray mud
he used to sling
in graveled slugs of leaden words
that slipped between the surviving teeth
and the cigar that filled ages
with its dank fumes
but never seemed to burn
except for the holes
in his clothes, polyester blends -
his battle scarred shirts
carried the ash
of every hazy dive
he'd ever tipped a glass in
did he see the tear
the splash of quick red
that bloomed in his left eye
caught between blinks
his vision fixed by will
his frame clenched
in his wicker chair
the chipped wreck groaned
with imperceptible strain
his flask
an accident of steel in his left hand
his worn boots in his right
silent.
still.
he watched the crimson trees break
like waves in the wind
twos
that can add to more than two.
you might say that not all twos are created equal
i would
they say that it takes two to tango
but i hate maxims proverbs platitudes
so
if it takes two people to perform the dance
the "tango"
the tangle of two
sharp angular trees...
what then?
Some beginnings.
--
The hooded voodoo man came prancing out down of the swirling green wind-filled high mountain forests when the seasons turned, fall rolling into winter, the icy razor of the northern air slicing through the needles, howling mournful songs.
--
A stillness hung on the beach, muting the cyclic crashing of the waves. Individual particles of sand traced chaotic patterns in an imperceptible breeze. They shifted restlessly but remained constrained in their tiny orbits. A boy sat surrounded by thousands of Brownian walks, but oblivious to them, the breakdown of order that dragged traces of the beach over the tops of his bare feet. His thin arms were wrapped around his knees, his chin resting above them, and his pale gaze slid out beneath a cap pulled low over half-lidded eyes, watching the surf. The water was gray, shrouded by the morning mist that sat featureless and immobile above. The waves crested just enough to spill crumbling foam.
On the occasion of
he always wanted to be called
Grandfather
and now its too late
to change
erosion
(a mountainous ruin of dirt and melanin
strained through decades
of beard and a thick bramble of graying hair)-
behind the glass the gleaming children
under wedges of thin fluorescence
smiled and slowly
wore down ice cream cones, shepherded
pressed, by the captain
of the white Mercedes parked slightly askance
the lines
demarcating the adjoining spots --
"do you have any money?", his voice held
no fear, no resignation, no pride
no shame
there was no salient thread to grasp and unravel
the man had no story
a simple question
a simple implication
a rock settled and eroding in a river,
smooth and tired and still
Bob
his palindromic existence. an advantage maybe,
a state of mind
Mikes and Kevins would never know.
angst, after
stab
of youth
the anger of the young
just a twisted mouth
and a pinched gut
a bitter memory
of a taste that lingers
on the tongue
the bridge
fifteen years to build
this bridge
this pile of stone,
cut lime
stretched out across
dusk river
hands sand-
peppered, cut to raw
leather by years
of grasp and haul and
lift
fifteen men take
fifteen years to lay
this road to cut
this stone heart
stalks
down hard
shoes old
beat up
mud caked
cling to
bird legs
that knife
cut through
still air
they lope
machine
calves roped
by worms
snake veins
swollen
the beat
unchanged
the strikes
that stay
in time
smile
was ripe and thick with scent
opened his leering pumpkin maw
filled with fibrous stands and
seedy teeth
i caught a glimpse of a black
dull feather
sticky with pulp
some unfortunate avian
meal
one sided conversation
a gun cane
titanium
no no .20 .22
is lethal once
you give someone the power of death
alone the last thing you see
is the light fading
in their eyes
bloodlines and
that's enough the whole
kibbitin caboodle
diluted
you're going
to be hanging
trash
on them
they can sit outside
the anteroom, they don't need
to hear what's going on
you're entitled to know
how they're going to act
that gives you insight
into how they're going to be
you don't have to throw
pebbles on the sidewalk
in front of them
or anything
he did an x
number of years
in prison he got out
that was the first woman
he hooked up with
man/woman bats eyelashes at him
he's done
with that girl playing
a casino game
for something better
it's in
the people the mental
matrix too
it's like a swimming pool
if it's cool
you stay in if you jump in
and there's a bunch of lawn furniture in there
you get out
of me
true
they have facial identity
now
police scan the faces
from langley
you know
recognition
identity
you guys are still brothers
but sometimes that pot
boils man
you just have to get through the shit
on the top
and talk
about the rest
ok,
let's talk
about this
let's talk
about problem child
let's step up
into a world that can do
something
put 8000 hp in that puppy
8000 hp when it went by
you felt it
and it impressed
you past
your soul now
check this out
and your motor is idling
at 60000 rpm
your whir is going
at 60 grand
90 grand if you crack
the throttle you'll burn
the wheels off
the car thats not crazy
if it will give it to me
i'll take it, it's just
a 30 dollar fine
for overdrawing you
take out 40 dollars or
a thousand
the fine is still
30 dollars it's all the same
man i won't tell you anything
that will get you in trouble
my blood you know
i was born
into it i'll figure out a way
to rob a bank
mother
grasped for purchase on the rock strewn shore
curled its nails into the sand, dragging back the land
life that escaped its silurian clutch
sodden corpses of honeybees that flew too far
stingers pointed out of the sand
like a thousand tiny anti-personnel mines
a half eaten seal hollowed out by wind and gulls
bright polyethylene ribbons
a faded towel
tangled cords of kelp
under assault
the maw of the mother
pulling pulling pulling
Thursday, November 6, 2008
Essay? Fiction? Who knows.
Friday, October 31, 2008
over the top chunks of noir
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The flashing red numbers told the story. Noon again, always and eternally noon. I hated those goddamn numbers, the repetition, the grim reminder of empty routine. Thralls to the cult of the running clock were whirring, no doubt, propelled on by their collective illness, the sick fascination with the progress of seconds, the slow drip of impending mortality.
sonnet
if I had begged off due to circumstance
and not been there that night. In fact, throughout
those years, I never gave myself a chance
at feeling love again, not in that way.
Imagine my surprise at finding you,
an island full of mystery, so fey
across the room. I remember moving
around so I could watch your dancing gaze.
It was your eyes that drew mine to your face,
alive and bright, and full of spark and fire.
And when the dying night had found the space
between us almost nothing, it required
that I surrender, give up my old walls,
the fortress of myself began to fall.
moment
as i slide between
soft cotton
and warm skin
pressed against mine
pale and bare
in faded yellow slats of light
pushing through the glass
and soon you wrap me
under your arm
without thought
still sleeping
slow wind creeps by
outside the window
down the wide empty avenue
the only sound
brushing the palms
quiet voice of the lonely
your grasp tightens
briefly
then relaxes
and you slip away
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Nerdy
Monday, October 20, 2008
Dream III
Dearest netizens
You're, your, there, their, they're, its, it's: learn them.
A ------------------------------------------------------------------------------ lot.
ConsEquence.
If you have a conference (n), you confer (v), you do not conference (v).
If you have a conversation (n), you converse (v), you do not conversate.
Sunday, October 19, 2008
Dream II
Saturday, October 18, 2008
Dream 1
Friday, October 17, 2008
the dog with one
limped out into the corn field
or rather
dragged himself
with a motion something like a
climber
reaching
for a high grip
on a smooth face
the potential energy
the violence
the white teeth
still smooth and sharp
he quivered with it
a trembling battery
his foot left comets
in the ground water filled
up the track(S)
dotted his progress
the broken graph
of the hunt
the birds
of the field
calling
always just out
of reach
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
Why not?
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The flashing red numbers told the story. Noon again, always and eternally noon. I hated those goddamn numbers, the repetition, the grim reminder of empty routine. Thralls to the cult of the running clock were whirring, no doubt, propelled on by their collective illness, the sick fascination with the progress of seconds, the slow drip of impending mortality.
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
An Empty Wish
An obvious example employed by those that hold this position is the rise and candidacy of Barack Obama as the Democratic candidate for the presidency of the United States. Largely driven by a low-level, internet savvy campaign, Obama overcame the powerful, coordinated machinery of the Democratic old guard, machinery focused on message control in the older media. His fundraising efforts have been fueled by an unprecedented number of small donations by lower income and younger citizens, the web based operation allowing him a flexibility he might not enjoy otherwise. American progressives leapt to support him, countless blogs and discussion forums latching on his early and repeated opposition to the invasion and occupation of Iraq. He has been carried by an unprecedented wave of internet populism.
Obama, in many ways, is a Reagan for the Age of the Internet. He sits at a rare convergence of politics, economics, and media, and he is uniquely qualified to take advantage of his position. He is elegant, young, and educated. His speeches are notable for their eloquence and projection of genuine concern. His personal discipline is incredibly well maintained, as is the discipline of his political apparatus. However, the efficacy of his campaign's strategy actually serves to illustrate the flaws and dangers of the current environment. The unity of voice that his message has produced is sadly familiar. The term 'echo chamber' has been used to describe much of the discourse occurring in electronic fora, and as tired as the phrase has already become, it is tellingly accurate.
A central responsibility of the traditional media, and in particular newspapers, is to report accurate, relevant, and timely stories. It seems clear that this is partially to blame for the falling influence of real journalism in the national discourse. How can a newspaper, restricted by accountability and bound to accuracy and the appearance of fairness, compete with organizations and individuals that mix traditional reporting with bloggers, rumors, and politically informed agendas, often indistinguishably? In discharging their obligations, newspapers necessarily become slower and more cautious than their younger competitors. Proponents of new media like to argue that the mainstream media is tired, outdated, and obsolete. They argue that new media gives voice to the voiceless, empowers the powerless, lifts the veil that shrouds the gap between the elite and the humble. There is no doubt that these new forms of communication have broad appeal, and have engaged hundreds of thousands of people.
Unfortunately, this has not, in general, led to a grand new era in American republicanism. It is in human nature to be tribal, and one doesn't have to look very hard to find this writ large on the manner in which people have employed these new media. It is not clear at all that the electorate is any more educated or informed than it has been in the past, unless talking points and soundbites are considered knowledge. Instead we find tribes, collections of like-minded people who cluster together, group-think laced through the strains of their discourse. Christopher Buckley is fired from the National Review, his famously conservative father's magazine, for endorsing Barack Obama. His colleague Kathleen Parker questions the wisdom of selecting Sarah Palin as a potential Vice President, and is drowned in violent, abusive email. David Frum raises legitimate points on Rachel Maddow's show, and is buried in arguments that don't address the fundamental issue he is trying to raise. The public commentary on left-leaning news sites is scathing, ignorant, and reactionary, single-minded and monolithic. The public commentary on right-leaning news sites is scathing, ignorant, and reactionary, single-minded and monolithic. Opposite viewpoints are howled at with a fervor that defies reason. There is little argument, just scorn.
This is the current that flows beneath our national conversation. It is rarely exposed, but all the more memorable when it is. The McCain campaign is dancing on the edge of this current in the final run to the election, but it would be foolish to assume that the same type of reactionary tribalism doesn't exist on the left. We the People display our worst natures when we consistently fail to recognize that there are frequently legitimate, reasoned, intelligent objections to our deepest held theories and opinions, when we don't even take the time to listen to our opponents. How much faith do we have in our beliefs and philosophies if we are incapable of defending them, or even listening to criticism?
It is asking a towering feat of a man to stand astride this gap, but that is the job that Barack Obama is going to face. The most frightening aspect of an angry mob is its tendency to turn on its own. Obama will likely immediately face choices that are going to anger his supporters, and the poisoned atmosphere of the run up to the election already has the right steaming. It would serve us all to recognize that unilateralism is just as dangerous in thought as it is in foreign policy.
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
George Will
WASHINGTON -- We are waist deep in evasions because one cannot talk sense about the cultural roots of the financial crisis without transgressing this cardinal principle of politics: Never shall be heard a discouraging word about the public.
Let's begin by making sure that the reader knows that we will be tarring the citizenry for the current crisis in economics.
Concerning which, a timeless political trope is: Government should budget the way households supposedly do, conforming outlays to income. But the crisis came partly because so many households decided that it would be jolly fun to budget the way government does, hitching outlays to appetites.
I'll mention in passing my distaste for deficit spending. Now that I have your attention, I'm going to proceed to the central argument of my column: rash use of credit by American families is fundamentally at fault for the current problems in the economy.
Beneath Americans' perfunctory disapproval of government deficits lurks an inconvenient truth: They enjoy deficits, by which they are charged less than a dollar for a dollar's worth of government. Conservatives participate in this, even though deficits fuel government's growth by obscuring its cost.
Most Americans are too naive and uneducated to realize why they believe what politicians of all stripes hammer away at in every single election. Indeed, they are just as guilty as the government that they allow to run rampant. I'd also like to mention that I still firmly stand with Reagan. The government is the problem, not the solution.
The people can emulate the government because credit has been democratized. Democratization of everything is supposedly an unquestionable good, but a blizzard of credit cards (1.5 billion of them, nine per cardholder), subsidized loans and cheap money has separated the pleasure of purchasing from the pain of paying. Furthermore, the entitlement mentality fostered by the welfare state includes a felt entitlement to a standard of living untethered from savings.
Every evil perpetrated by the citizenry can be blamed on the "welfare state". Watch as I carefully create a connection between the availabilty of credit, which has little to do with the government beyond the LACK of regulations in place to control the corporations that provide it, and the conservative standby of unearned entitlement. Pay no attention to the fact that there is little more than a tenuous correlation here.
Populism flatters the people, contrasting their virtue with the alleged vices of some minority -- in other times, Jews or railroad owners or hard money advocates; today, the villain is "Wall Street greed," which is contrasted with the supposed sobriety of "Main Street." When people on Main Street misbehave by, say, buying houses for more than they can afford to pay, they blame the wily knaves who made them do it, such as the "nimble" Babbitt.
Now, I'm really going to go over the top. Populism, i.e. a poltical movement defined by and beholden to the will of the populace, typically the working and middle classes, is about setting up a straw man to bash to keep the masses free of any hint of blame. Let's throw the Jews in there for color. I know it seems a bit forward, but the position I am espousing here is something along the lines of Daddy Knows Best. I'm not going to let a trace of blame for the financial instutions that shopped these loans aggressively and took advantage of longstanding respect and reputation enter my arguement.
Knowing that heat breeds haste, errors and unintended consequences, George Washington praised the Senate as the saucer into which legislation is poured to cool. In this crisis, however, the House of Representatives has performed that function. Republicans, especially, slowed a Gadarene rush to ratify the deeply flawed original bailout legislation.
Just a bit of flavor now. Founding Fathers and all that.
Voting against the bill -- against putting taxpayers' money at risk in order to clean up a mess that some people got rich by making -- was easy, but not necessarily wrong. The $700 billion figure exaggerated the plan's probable cost, but accurately measured something worse -- the enormous enlargement of government's power.
My objections to this bill have little to do with the transfer of wealth from the poor to the rich.
So the joint declaration by John McCain and Barack Obama that Congress should "rise above politics" was mere gas. The legislation touched elemental questions -- the meaning of justice, the parameters of freedom and the proper functions of government. Democrats charge that the crisis is market failure arising from an insufficiency of government, in the form of regulation. Well.
We need to conflate John McCain's incohernt, irrational approach to this particular game with Barack Obama's, regardless of the lack of similarity. Political expediency will not be a factor we discuss.
Suppose that in 1979 the government had not engineered the first bailout of Chrysler (it, Ford and GM are about to get $25 billion in subsidized loans). Might there have been a more sober approach to risk throughout corporate America?
I need an example, somewhere to fix the blame. Here's one I can bend to fit this situation. We leave tacet any mention of the S&L recovery, and the housing fix of early last century.
Suppose there had never been implicit government backing of Fannie Mae and Freddie Mac. Better yet, suppose those two had never existed -- there was homeownership before them, just not at a level that the government thought proper. Absent Fannie and Freddie -- absent government manipulation of the housing market -- would there have developed the excessive diversion of capital into the housing stock?
Again, let me stab at the crux. The government's size and involvement in American life is improper when it involves actions on the level of the citizenry. This broad brush simultaneously paints homeowners and the government. Little mention is to be made of corporate exploitation, as the market rules all and acts naturally.
The rising generation of thoughtful Republicans was represented on both sides of Monday's vote. Virginia's Eric Cantor, 45, and Wisconsin's Paul Ryan, 38, supported the legislation because they had helped to achieve substantial improvements in it, such as requiring financial institutions to help finance their bailout, giving the Treasury potentially valuable equity in firms revived by public funds, and eliminating a slush fund for Democratic activists. Texas' Jeb Hensarling, 51, and Indiana's Mike Pence, 49, voted against what they considered a rescue model fundamentally flawed because (in Hensarling's words) it "could permanently and fundamentally change the role of government."
Contortionists are no more flexible than me. I laud Republicans on both sides of the vote. Some are fighting the evil, federalist Democrats. Some are fighting the evil federalist government. All hail Repubicans, the leaders of tomorrow. I am highly educated, and quite aware of the level and type of government involvement in regulating and controlling the financial elements of foreign economies, but I have a drum to beat.
It is potentially catastrophic that this crisis comes in the context of a closely contested election and a collapse of presidential authority. Congress should disconnect from a public that cannot be blamed for being more furious about than comprehending of this opaque debacle. The public wanted catharsis, and respect for its center-right principles, and got both with Monday's House vote. It still needs protection against obliteration of the financial system.
Let me close by indicating my support for Presidential authority, perhaps a nod to the unitary executive theory. The public is ignorant and angry, but to be forgiven for raging along the paths that its Republican virtues lay out. The solution should lie with those who know better. Republik Uber Alles.
To clarify, my analysis of Will's column, which is in bold, is not intended to absolve the public of any blame for the current crisis, but I find offensive the notion that the free market acts instinctively and only reacts to situations that the people/government create.
Friday, January 25, 2008
Person First Language
If there are people incapable of distinguishing between an adjective and a noun, should the rest of us destroy the cadence and clarity of our language to accommodate them?
Adjectives precede nouns because the grammar of our language dictates that descriptors come before the objects they describe. Interpreting this as some kind of hierarchical code seems a stretch.
The fact that this seems most prevalent in education is not surprising in the least.
Even more amusingly, there seems to be a struggle between two theories of disability that is being carried out partly in the use of person first or person second language. Partisans, march on.
Monday, January 21, 2008
Between fetus worship and paranoid risk aversion, maybe we'll just decide to lock all the preggers up in special facilities guaranteed to ensure that they subjugate themselves entirely to their impending motherhood and that their treatment of the god-babies inside them is up to snuff.
Wednesday, January 9, 2008
Hillary Clinton
Thursday, January 3, 2008
Saturday, December 22, 2007
Musing
How broad is the accepted definition of nihilism? How does it flow so easily from existentialism?
Judging by the popularity of World of Warcraft, AIM, etc., are we going to be slaves to our virtual reality masters?
Friday, December 21, 2007
aphoristica I
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Baseball players have been coming clean in the aftermath of the Mitchell Report. Amazingly, the majority of those admitting their minor indescretions have never touched steroids, and those that admit to HGH consumption (indiscretions practiced once or twice in weak moments) ascribe only the motivation of healing to their usage. Who knew that men paid millions to play hit ball with stick were such paragons of virtue.
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From wikipedia: Nihilism (from the Latin nihil, nothing) is a philosophical position which argues that Being, especially past and current human existence, is without objective meaning, purpose, comprehensible truth, or essential value.
A sweet fruit lying on the table, waiting to be bitten.
Tuesday, December 11, 2007
Insulting
Now, I don't believe that Romney is doing anything more than pandering to certain powerful interests in the Republican party, nor do I believe that the United States is brimming over with rabid, dogmatic, fundamentalist Bible-thumpers, but the fact remains that our public discourse certainly implies that it is. Lack of belief in the "Christian" god is an insurmountable obstacle to election. Today, Lincoln would have been scorned and mercilessly attacked by political opponents for his lack of faith, or even just his lack of publicly displayed faith.
Sunday, December 9, 2007
Preliminary version of an essay on art.
We now face a flood of work that frequently lacks even the most basic elements of craft. Far from democratizing art, user-generated content has instead increased the amount of sludge hiding the gems. My guess is that the lack of critical neutral feedback is causing this. A writer, an artist, a musician, these people receive real, tactile responses to their work if they publish/show/perform it in meatspace. Their relationship with their creation is personal, they touch it themselves, they *see* it. The echo-chamber of the open content portion of the web allows for very little of this. Pieces seem to gain popularity for novelty, or shock, or unintentional humor. The lack of craft displayed in the creation of these videos and songs is dismaying, and the end results are frequently appalling. All voices are not created equal. The screaming, self-centered cesspool of the internet hasn't diluted the value of the dedicated artist, it has enhanced it. People who possess the special gift to see things from awkward angles, and the skill to express that vision in ways that evoke and surprise are rare. The Frankenstein progeny of the webcam, while occasionally amusing and often titillating, serve to demonstrate how rare artists actually are. There isn't much more cream, but the milk stretches down to ocean depth.
It is not a failure of the new tools, at least to nowhere the extent that one might believe at first glance. It has never been easier, in the whole breadth of human history, to create and distribute crafted work. To be sure, access to these tools has spurred the rise of many artists in all media who perhaps never would have even begun without them, but alongside this newly empowered, growing community has arisen a furious, self-reinforcing, loud, and relentless howl of trivia, inanity, and bad taste.
